FLIPFLOPBEAR

Everywhere I look people surround me yet I feel so all alone sun shines overhead so bright but I am cold through to my bones I try to escape the many voices pounding so loud in my head questioning why am I here wouldn't I be better off dead always running from my demons avoiding to face them head on every direction I turn to hide in always seems to be dead wrong

"Hold On...I'm coming to save you" are the words I hear constantly in my head. "Just Wait for me and I will be there soon to help you find your way." "Be Calm and I will hold you until the pain subsides, as soon as I can get to you." "But Dont go...Please stay! I have to help you and take care of you in any way." "And yet its GoodBye..Your no longer here. It is my fault that I was to late" I always told myself we would have more time, that I would make more time. Now there is.. No More Time... ~FLIPFLOPBEAR~ 09'

I wonder where you are right now and if you are happy and have found some peace of mind at last I wonder how you would be feeling if I would have been the one that choose to leave you in that way Would you feel the emptiness and loneliness I feel at this very moment and every moment of every day Would you have the same regrets and desperate longings to have changed the way it ended between us I wonder if you can see me at night, the tears soaking my pillow and sleep rarely coming to comfort me I wonder if you know how the days never seem to end and the nights run together without you here anymore I wonder if you knew how much I

Your soul must be dancing on the Ocean's Waves... Your spirit is blowing in the Winter Winds... "Fly to the Angels, Heaven awaits your Heart"... Your now free. No more binding chains. No more of your pain... Your playground is now the Clouds Above... The Rainstorms fill my ears with your Laughter... Your Smiling Face...Such a Peaceful Grace... I Can Only Imagine I will miss you My Mother...My Angel